Ana Camp Day 5

50 Calorie allowance today. And I've had about that amount. Two dwarf apples, fuck yeah. So tell me if you guys have experienced this: When fasting, you feel skinny as fuck. Whether it be because of the hunger or the hunger pangs or the tummy growls that make you feel beautiful and weak. When you're about to fall over because you're blacking out. You just feel empty and lovely and its wonderful. But the second you eat something... all the sudden you gained like fuckin 10 pounds like that. You walk by a mirror you just see your belly bloated and jiggling and ughhargrarrhghagrgahhagarrr.. shouldn't have had that dwarf apple. I love fasting so much and I fucking HATE eating after a fast. I hate it.
So I got invited to a wee kickback tonight... By that guy that I used to be infatuated by. I'm not really giddy or anything.. But he has a pool... and I have a bikini under my clothes. I KNOW for a fact there's gonna be smokin' hot chicks there with smokin' hot bodies and what the fuck is my doughy ass gonna be doing? Pouting? NO. That's not sexy, so here's the plan:
I will be completely 100% fake aaaasss FUCK. I will take all my clothes off, I will smile. I will put my hands on my hips and stand next to the twigs and I will feel like a goddamned trichechus.

But I wont eat SHIT. I wont(might, I might) drink... I WONT FUCKING SMOKE WEED FUCK. I'll try to get some fags and I will act completely confident. Because confidence is sexy, ladies. Don't take it from me, 'cause how many boyfriends have I had(none), but, when you're all insecure about your body n shit, its NOT SEXY. At all. Take Kat Von D for example:

Listen, I love the bitch... But girl can lose a few. But do guys care? FUCK NO! Because she's confident as hell and she doesn't act like a little insecure faggot. She puts on a bikini because FUCK YOU and she rocks that shit. She's so awesome dude. If I was mentally healthy, she'd be my goal.



...So yeah, you'll hear about the kickback tomorrow I guess.. wish me luck with the acting confident shit... peace.