Don't Do This.

Listen to me. If you've come to this blog because you're curious about eating disorders, or you want to lose weight, or whatever, listen to me right now.
Eat.
Eat healthily. I know what it's like being invisible. I know what it's like being a bit larger than your friends. I know what its like being undesirable and hating yourself and your body for it.
Listen to me. You are beautiful. I don't care what size you are.
And I know you're just sitting there going "Okay, but you have no idea how bad I want this." Or "I'm bigger than you were at your highest weight, bitch." Or "How can you tell me not to when you speak so highly of Ana?"
Listen carefully. If you take nothing else from this post, take this: Anorexia Nervosa can and will KILL you.
This is the most debilitaing, draining, emotionally shredding thing I have ever gone though. I've had panic attacks that endanger my heart. I've passed out, I've thrown up so much that I've been HOSPITALIZED for electrolyte imbalances. Believe me, this is NOT the way to "get pretty" or "draw attention" or what ever your intentions are.
If you're still tempted to stop eating healthily, do me a favor. Look up the results of Anorexia Nervosa. Heart Disease, Loss of Fertility, Hair Loss, Fatigue, Severe Nutrient Difficiency, even DEATH. Those are just SOME of the many many inevitable results.
I have a serious mental condition.
Don't go looking for this kind of torture.
This is not a fix. This is not a diet. This is not a trick to get into that bikini. It is a horrible disgusting DISEASE. And it will destroy you and every one's lives around you.
Please. PLEASE. If you are currently not anorexic. Get help. Now. Go see a therapist or a nutritionist to help you come up with a HEALTHY eating plan.
Please. Life does get better. There is hope for a new you. You are BEAUTIFUL. Full of life, and surrounded by people who love you, even if you don't see it.
If you need some one to talk to, I check this blog almost everyday. post a comment or send me a message asking me for contact information and I will lend an ear and a hand in whatever you're going through. I'm very good at listening.

Thank You for reading my blog.

xoEllieAna