3:30 PM. I've been fasting fooooooor... 19 hours now?
I'm talking to a boy!! He has a foot fetish... months and months of starving and purging to get my body perfect for a boy, and I finally talk to one and he wants to see... my feet.. -_-
Well whatever, as I always say, attention is attention.
So about four or five weeks ago, I took this test. It's to see if I can just get my diploma early, test out of high school basically. And I should be getting the results in about three days or so... :D
I'm so excited. Because, my mum says, if I pass, I get a MAC :DDDDDDDDDD
I've always wanted oneeeeee. So I'm hella excited. I just hope I passed!
Dude, this guy wants a minute-long video of me wiggling my toes.. Like what the fuck is that?! How the hell do you get off on that? Like "oh, yeah baby, I like how you wiggle those toes, you dirty little slut. Yeeeaahh, flex your feet for me, baby. Oh... oh yeah.. that's so hot.."
Anyway. This fast has been tough. Especially since the cupcakes and icing from my birthday are still sitting right there on the counter in a Tupperware box.. taunting me.. seducing me.
GAH snap out of it, you SLUT! You can DO this!
Drink your water. Do jumping jacks. Look at thinspo. Don't just SLAP Ana in the face by EATING. fat. fat fattie!!
It is now 4:30PM. I'm watching STALKED: Someone's Watching. Is it weird that I want this guy to stalk me...? He's incredibly sexy. This bitch's like "Oh, he wouldn't leave me alone. I hated him so much. He was so scary. Blah blah blaaah." I'm like, bitch, he's SEXY. He's all sensual and his voice is all sexed and mmm. If I had a sexy-ass man following me, I'd be like "bring it on, baby."
..This is so bad. If you're reading this, and you've ever been stalked, I am so sorry. I'm sure it's absolutely aweful...
I fuckin' want Latisse.
I don't promote websites, as in, I don't take money in exchange for mentioning websites on my blog. But I just found this Pro Ana website called SkinnyGossip.com. It's incredible!! Thinspo upon thinspo! Skinny pride upon skinny pride! Celebrities, Models, Diet Plans, Excercise, Beauty Tips. It's amazing! One of the best I've found. Definitely.
5:45PM drinkin some low calorie hot chocolate. Not feelin' too hot about it honestly but, anything to keep myself from binging.
6:00PM Okay, many of you may very well stop reading my blog when you hear about what I'm about to talk about. And this might be horrible and sick and just plain wrong because of what she's allegedly gone through and blah blah blah but...
I do not think Demi Lovato qualifies as thinspo. At all. Yes, I know she's all "I hated my body, bulimia, self-harm, ladida." But, honestly... she doesn't... look very successful at starvingIMSORRY. Im sorry. It's aweful I know. I'm going to hell I know. But she has HUGE thighs, HUGE wings, and a pretty THICK midsection.
I just don't think she should be worshipped as an "Ana Angel."
I'm going to hell.
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